Holy high hell! It appears this here site had its first birthday over the last few days. When I first started it, I figured I’d give up on updating it after a month at best. Evidently that didn’t happen, and I just keep coming back for more. Well I’m glad. I think this site is a pretty accurate representation of who I tend to be as a person, so it’s nice to have it kicking around. Dumb as it sounds, I’m rather proud of this slipsteam of mine. It’s like an introduction to me that’s there for the whole world to stumble across. Weird and scary perhaps, but why shouldn’t it be there? I’m not weirded out easily. [beat]. The other day I was reading some things I wrote in grade 9 and I’d say that at the root I’m very much the same person now as I was then for better or worse I think my general personality and sense of humour have stayed almost the same and I could see myself writing basically the same thing now. None of that going away and becoming a whole new person stuff for me… which is mostly good because, on a wholly healthy level, I like myself. There’s been some changes, good or ill, hopefully mostly good. The biggest changes in myself over the last 5 or 6 years are a not fully adequate decrease in shyness and a worrisome increase in sloth. Well, there’s always room for improvement. Anyway, if I seem like a bitch or a doofus or a boring sod based on what’s here on the site, then that would probably carry over into “real” life. And vice versa I suppose, as far as vice versa relates to the possibility of me having positive adjectives associated with me, which may be a mis-use of such an esteemed latin phrase, but at least I didn’t pronounce the e at the end of vice. I freaking hate that (though both are technically correct). I don’t know if this is a big deal at all or not (not the vice versa thing, which is obviously not, the stuff before that), but I think it’s at least worth mentioning. I should just hope my website doesn’t become sentient steal my identity. That would be worrisome. All this blathering just goes to say that you should feel completely free to judge me based on what you read here. Well that’s maybe not true because irony and sarcasm have a way of getting lost when transcribed. But I think (hope) most people can figure that stuff out.
That felt a little too self-referential and pretentious, I’m going to get some water.
It really feels like a Monday today, even though usually Mondays haven’t been a terrible thing for me. But the dulldrums and the tedium and the grinding are setting in. I’m needing to get a topic for my essay due Thursday for my Creative Writing class, and I’m hedging back and forth on several things and not entirely sure what I should focus on, and especially what is expected of us in this assignment. Yesterday I went to the library and got 10 vaguely related books and I still don’t have a too much of a clue. Ideas, oh lots of ideas. They’re just not doing so much of the coming together thing. Maybe I’ll make a flowchart. Maybe I’ll pound my head against the wall. Maybe the ships will come sailing in.
If you happen to be up at 8:00 am tomorrow (Tuesday) tune in to CFMU (online or at 93.3 FM in the Hamilton area) and you can listen to me hopefully not make a fool of myself (assuming I succeed in dragging myself out of bed). It would be nice if no one else made me into a fool, either. Time will tell.